Firstly and Lastly

I feel I have to explain it this way in order for people to understand what it is I am trying to say to them, as the ignorance is compelling. The Lord Jesus came to me, descended into the deepest darkest recesses of Hell to find me, and He pulled me out, many times, hence this journal. Understand and discern what this means, let the reader understand. I said nothing before He appeared, was nothing, am nothing and where I was, He still opened my heart, made it His own, and there it was laid bare, and torn open, destroyed completely, a mash of absolute rejection and every curse you could possibly imagine, weaved into flesh by the malice of my enemies, the devil and Satan and every demon set against me, mocked me. I did nothing to deserve it, I did nothing so I deserve it, I am nothing, I cannot be anything else but nothingness for that nothingness can only be filled by God and never anything evil in order to contain and embellish only Him, and at the same moment not be Him, but truly a mere reflection and a refraction of His Glory, made possible by the Sacrifice of the Lamb.

Try figuring out in a jiffy how every Word I have written and not written is bound to the fulfillment of the Gospels, all scriptures, The Revelation to John, and True Life in God. If your Heart was truly adorned with His Love, you would not need to figure it out. His Spirit is bound to me and this body, which will eventually die, but you must come first to the Knowledge within of what will happen when THIS body does die, even though I died a few times along the way. Darkness and death would cover the earth like a shroud if this body should be dead beyond a time, two times, and half a time. One would be inclined to say, nothing would happen, and that is true in a sense – the entire Universe will become an absolute nothingness as fast as how far the east is from west, infinity would even be no more, like it was before He spoke His Word. Thus, a home has been found and none are any wiser, but still mock and hate, mutter curses which have no power, just as it was before…

Know that I endured and still endure great suffering for you all, most of which you will not understand until all is said and done. Your Saviour Jesus and your Mother Mary, will gracefully endure the Crucifixion over and over and over and over to save you from your sins, but why do you still hang out after redemption around the precipice of Hell?

I will always be that nothing on Earth because of the abomination of your sins, but the Lord always gives back Mercy and Justice with repentance. Woe to you should His Justice be rendered unto you by His Most Holy Spirit, for none know from whence or how It comes, none can evade His Spirit; Truly, the Holy Spirit can even evade the Father or the Son, but would never evade both because the reunions and the departures are an Eternal Gift. It is a greater Gift therefore to be immersed in All Three. A Most Sacred Mystery which as you can see as you read, only serves to posit you in a place of disbelief and not wonder as it should, and I will always point thee to Christ to receive Him Body and Blood, Soul and Divinity, into Eternal Life. But no one acknowledges or asks me, and that does not bother me one bit at this point, but it truly grieves His Spirit. If it is not His Wonder you behold, you therefore will fear.

I found a place to reside
Deep inside
His Most Sacred Heart Divine
O Sublime and Pure Sweetness
I adored Thee to become Me

Have you not yet tasted? Do you not see?

A Heart made Sacred
A Sacred Heart on Fire
Immaculate Her Heart is
Sacred and on Fire
Love lets Hearts unite

Let Him make your heart His own

Judgement Day
Starts today
And will take Us a thousand years
This is my last warning
The only books you should be reading now
Are the ones that led me to Heaven while on Earth I was here
The Bible and True Life in God
Amen

If I go before you in Love
Will you follow me with that same Love?

So the step forward begins with unity and peace…

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-repeat-

Patience out of Love is always worth enduring
Suffering out of Love is always worth enduring
Helping others out of Love is always worth enduring
_______ out of Love is always worth enduring
Fill in the blanks
Does not work if the blanks are filled with things wrapped in hate
-Repeat-

To Know

I came to know the Lord
My God
In His Way
Which is to say
Jesus

Fortitude
Wisdom
Knowledge
Wonder (Fear of the Lord)
Counsel
Understanding
Piety

I remember them all, try to live them all, however the order is how His Spirit is arrayed within me today, wrapped in Love.
Good luck figuring out why I am struggling to stay pious!

Law

The sting of death is sin
And the power of sin is the law
For just as sin came into the world
Through one man
And death came through sin
And so death spread to all because all have sinned
Sin was indeed in the world before the law
But sin is not reckoned when there is no law
And the law is written on your hearts

Behold, the world you inherited
Sin thrives because of your laws
I came to abolish all laws
Keep in mind
The first three about love
For all the Law is fulfilled
By love alone

Awaiting

I read a chapter of Luke today
I read it out loud
And all of Heaven could hear
And my Heart projected
Telling it like a story
And as I was doing so
The memories came flooding in
I could not stop reading
And I could not stop seeing
A Journey
Parallel to my own as I read

Twenty four minutes it took to read
And that was the chapter
But took as long as four days

There is still but one more thing
Awaiting

On That Day

On that day it shall be said to Jerusalem:
Do not fear, O Zion
Let not your hands grow weak
The Lord God is in your midst
A warrior who gives victory
He will rejoice over you with gladness
He will renew you in his love
He will exult over you with loud singing
As on a day of festival

I will remove disaster from you
So that you will not bear reproach for it
Behold, at that time I will deal
Will all your oppressors
And I will save the lame
And gather the outcast
And I will change their shame into praise
And renown in all the earth

At that time I will bring you home
At the time when I gather you together
Yea, I will make you renowned and praised
Among all the peoples of the earth
When I restore your fortunes
Before your eyes
Says the Lord

Zephaniah 3:16-20