Give Him Permission

My heart grieves at my wretchedness before the day of my Lord Jesus’ birth. He wants me to remind the reader that apart from Him we are nothing. This is not only to illustrate what we actually are without God, but because I offered Jesus my very own life, I gave Him permission, and I have let Him possess me. Our Lord is gentle, loving and kind. He died for me and He has given me permission, and allowed me to possess Him. Not just to me, but to all who wants to drink from this fountain. It is all you dreamed of and so much more!

It’s no coincidence that this day the weather is 17 C so far on Christmas Eve and that there is a feeling of Spring in the air! Today, it is supposed to be very cold and very snowy, but by the Lord’s Mercy He answered my prayer. As a sign, perhaps, but most importantly, the time for all things hidden to come to light and that the Power of the Holy Spirit flow into all the earth and reveal the truth. Mary, Mother Most Holy, watch over us and intercede for us, we are weak and the first battle is at hand. Lord Jesus, stir up in the hearts of Your faithful and grant them all Your own Eyes so that they can see who You really are and the things You are doing out of Love for them.


The Way

I woke from my sleep with praise to God on my lips, for the Lord indeed is merciful. It is only by His Grace that I have walked this far, the Lord is gentle and merciful because of my weaknesses. Though I realized, that there are mysteries surrounding these Graces, and the Lord is always preparing me. Now the Lord is leading me up a very narrow and steep way, there is no path, only bloody footprints, for He is the way and where He leads me, I follow. Know this, oh fortunate reader, believe in the Lord and in what He has already done, what He is now doing, and what He is going to do. My heart leaps for Joy at the thought of what waits, Praise be to the Lord!

A Revelation

This is so much more than about being saved. I know already that I am saved, the Gift of this assurance has given me the opportunity to be bold before God and ask Him for anything. Anyone can ask Him for anything in Christ’s name. Since Jesus and I are one and we are through and within each other, I am. And I have been very bold, for I have stood before the Lord broken and bleeding, and He taught me His Cross, and when all was revealed, I now know that as the Lord your God Lives in Me, He has brought power to my name for His Glory. Ask and it will be done to you, ask and you shall receive. I say bold, because despite my weakness, I know my place in the Heart of God. Satan has tried long to take me away from this Love. He has failed because even he is blind to the truth. No one can take away the Love of God when He has sealed it upon His Beloved.

What Jesus and I bring to the world is Jesus Christ, the only Begotten Son of God, in all His Glory, defeating sin and death and now has come to Judge the world. Do you have eyes that See? How many will see Him and ask for a miracle? I already asked for only one miracle, for me to become Jesus and Jesus to become me, that we become indistinguishably one. I have a long way to go, but now that I am clothed in Christ, and He is within me, it will not be long now before the eyes of the world will finally be open.

Extraordinary Desire

What I prayed about today consisted of many things and once again I acknowledged my weakness before God. I am nothing. Then I felt peace. He said He was pleased that the desires of my heart point to Himself and told me to continue to follow Him. Then I raised the desires of my heart to Him, asking Him for something extraordinary, my contribution to the conversion of souls requiring His help, and I hope He will answer my prayer.

Indeed the Lord has come, and none know it. Mary my Mother, Holy Mary, Mother of God, stir up in the hearts of your faithful, inspire in them the desire to seek Jesus and find Him. Mary, tell them my name and tell them the truth. It is time. Amen.

Breathe Fire

He breathed His Flame into my Heart, now His Flame has become purifying fire, a burning desire, a Holy Thirst for Him. It never ends and it only gets better the more he satisfies my thirst. My insatiable thirst will continue until I am made perfect by Him, and on that Day, His Glory will shine, and all will see and know the Truth.

I Am who Am, says the Lord.

My Lord, burn me with your purifying fire, and prepare me for the day you bring your fire on the earth.

The Lord has been patient with me, and my heart is heavy with sorrow. I know what waits for many, fire that is not like any other fire, it’s poison will kill and it will burn everything away.

I offered to the Father my very own life, for Him to take it and use me in any way He wants and this pleased Him. I then wondered why He could not just glorify Himself through me with a blindingly bright and glorious transfiguration, and then the world will finally see. I asked the Father if it be His Will that I be transfigured before many. The Lord revealed that I did not understand, that He has indeed already clothed me, and as it is the rest of the world that cannot see for they are blind to His Light, but He assured me that all will behold Him in company with countless hosts of Angels and Saints, with me, coming down from Heaven. This is the Day that waits for those who Hope in the Lord.


The Lord revealed to me a man, He said he was Russian, I did not see much else, so I prayed for him, then I was prompted to write this:

Lord Jesus I am weak, grant me your graces.
Lord Jesus I am afraid, grant me your peace.
Lord Jesus I am blind, grant me your sight.
Lord Jesus I am a sinner, grant me your forgiveness.
Lord Jesus I am nothing, grant me yourself.
Lord Jesus I love you


Clothed in Christ

Oh Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God! Praise and Honour is all yours! Bless you Saint Pio! Not only have you led me to Christ, you lead me to an even greater union with Him. Christ clothed you in Himself during every moment you could spare, I would have to say, that just as I have learned, that prayers can be answered when those with the Faith pray to a living Son of God. I look forward to the Day when we all gaze upon the Face of God and in a Song of Praise give Him all the Glory!

To be clothed in Christ means to abandon yourself to God, completely, without reservation.